...So, I have been feeling a bit unmotivated lately.
I don't know about you, but I find that when I stop or pause (for any length of time) from the creative process, there is a whole separate process that ensues when trying to delve back into the very core of creating.
This is where I am stuck. I am stuck here.
It isn't always as simple as sit down, get out supplies and go. It takes time, it takes thought, inspiration, movement, emotion, etc., and then maybe, finally I can get down to the actual thing: making, creating.
Sure, I could just make stuff, but to really get the "real deal" out of it I can't just throw my understanding of this process aside, muse has her own mind made up about how she wants to share her goods.
It is the core I am trying to get to, you see. The raw, unhindered core. Like when I was a child.
There is so much thought involved in adult creativity. Deep thought, surface thought, worries and doubts. I find I have to sift through a lot of that muck to get myself to a place where I feel free enough to really pull out what I am trying to share with the external world around me.
This is what I have come to understand through the years of my life and years of creating. Maybe it is only me.... Maybe others are less inhibited in this field and I just need to work on letting go of control a little bit. I want to find balance.
So my goal is to accomplish one creative thing a day. Even if that is just doing a little sketch, knitting a few rows on a current project or making an actual decision on what design I want to make into a screen for printing next... I grapple with indecision.
So for now I guess I will be focusing on what just makes me happy and sharing the beauty I see.